Tuesday 3 April 2012
The life I Wanna Live
I hope my dreams comes true, i wanna be celebirty hairdresser i wanna be doing some big names, i want everyone to know my name, i want people from birmingham to say
"She made it out this shit hole"
Right now shit is hard, but i keep thinking what if i make it so big that i wouldnt have to cut hair again i will be living off my name &' the history i have made, i wanna be with my booboo somewhere nice smoking weed drinking cocktails out of a coconut &' partying on the weekend in maimi
fringer crossed until then i will sit in my room &' thinking im black chnya :P
Sunday 11 March 2012
Monday 5 March 2012
Sexual Socitey ?
The reason why my i called my blog that is because i have a freaky mind i must say hehehe, but dont get the wrong idea i dont go &' set myself free to anyone or i dont take naked pic and send them round i not that type of girl but i just have a freaky freaky mind ;) but i never let her out to play
but she is out to play today :P
"Being freaky is in my mind body &'soul but i cannot let her out to play i have too much self respect"
"Lonely, Horny, Where You At Baby?"
The Last Few Days With My Nanna ✝
I remba that week like it was last week, i got that phone call off my brother to tell me my nan as really gotten really bad &' she might not make to chirstmas as soon i heard that my heart just stop &' i could feel warm water falling from my eyes. when we got there &' i saw the women who gave my mother life the way she looked just over taken me. i have never saw my nan looked like that in my life it was like she was died already. i stood here in tears with my mother my brother & neeka (my brothers girlfriend) &' my nephew. we all couldnt believe what we saw she was just there helpness
"Nanna answer me talk to me, but no reply"
soon as i got in i light a zubby &' sat there in shock i just couldnt believe this might be the end for my nan but i had to stay strong for her but i couldnt i just broke down in tears &' cried myself to sleep. i felt it for my mommy the most how can you couple when your mother is like that because i couldnt i swear. the next morning me &' my mom when down there everyone came to show there respect which was lovely of them. i remba sitting from 9am till 10pm next to her she was just laying there she didnt say a sound with her eyes closed but i could see her chest going up and down just talking about it now just fucking hurts :'(
we all went home that night next morning Sunday 18th decmber 2012 i woke up with a phone call off my mother to say she gone. if god was next to me i could of banged him because my nan didnt do nothing wrong but look after her family & worked hard so why should of she gone in that way why couldnt she live for ever.
Yano what I still cannot believe my nan dead man I'm missing her I still feel like I can go & see her & get joke off her but ino that cannot happen I fucking miss the women words cannot even explain man
R.I.P nanna Sunrise 25.12.39 Sunset18.12.12 †'♥
MyWorld..
“Me Myself &’ I, I Told Myself”
My whole life i have been inscure about myself, when it comes to looks i have a big problem with myself &’its a porblem i don’t no that anyone would understand. Sometimes i think am i just being stupid &’ there is nothing wrong with me, but there is always that voice that over comes everything &’ tell me you dont look like her so your are UGLY “/ . i have my moments where i think your not beauitful monique your not even okay, why do i think this i don’t know i couldnt tell you. but no matter how much my girls tells me “Monique you beauty baby girl” it doesnt change how i feel about myself. i have always wanted that nice shape body with a pretty face yano the looks that you see on MTV or somthing.
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